TRUTH, LOVE & LITTLE MALICE

So do I !

2010-07-28T22:22:00.004+05:30

If you love yourself then some decisions, although painful for next few moments, are worth making. In fact define a part of life, you always wished to live after you achieve an important milestone in your journey.

Cos shape is round........

2010-05-05T20:51:00.002+05:30

Sitaro ko apni aankho main rakh lo, bahut door tak ab raat he raat hogi,
bhulna mat jaana mera nam aap kyoki musafir ho tum bhe musafir hoon main bhe,
kya pata achanak kisi din mulakat hogi !

A complex web........

2010-01-22T06:56:00.003+05:30

We never lose, what we never had. Then what ? why again and again, I find myself involved.

It took time but scrathing my head finally I got the answer. We don't meet right person every otherday. Its a honest answer cause we can not lie person within. But life wasn't as easy, What lies between a complex web, we ppl create.
You can not through it alone when person in front of you says your left is my right and vice versa. Noone thinks when we move in same direction then right or left really doesn't matter. Its simple, how will you think when you are busy in putting yourself at upper hand. Call it ego or distance, it means same.
After no one likes to be a loser. Isn't it that we are being a loser, in real game lled life.
In many cases it become worse, when a gesture to do it right, interpretated as an act of defame. Eachone among us wants a perfect telationship to be happy but we never try to know how distant we have taken ourself.
Truth is in this vacum we dont hear any other voice except our own. Those listen know the secret of a perfect relation. I have read somewhere that mistakes become milestone if you have learnt the lesson. But when comes on relationship, I see it fails. This web cant be through until both corners try it willingly. May be thats why most of the relationships die young. It contains a critical factor called timing. Reason being amplitude which cant become strong enough to breakthrough if timing doesnt synchronice, making it a bit more critical to tryout.
well like it not but its a color we choose to live with, after all we are the creator of our destiny.

Turn the page

2010-01-21T02:05:00.002+05:30

and you will have one more experience. Seems like the fog of the days getting condense with everyday. One thing I noticed in this fog quite opposite of basic rules. Objects become more clearer with sunlight and after a amplitude things starts to fade a bit more with passage of time. But fog only gets condense with passage of time and it seems to be everywhere, suddnely you gotta see it no where. Scientific reason mentioned for this phenomena says settlement of dust particles.
Just like human mind, finding yourself amid flowing emotions in a direction and suddenly you feel like there is no direction. It hurted a lot initially but was right way so I started to live with saying what ever happens, happens for good. But it wasn't the case, I can ignore. Yet again it was boumd to happen. I know, we don't have control over thing but as said be the change you want to bring in the world. Obviously honesty is the 1st thing, to be taken care.

Atleast you don't need to waste your time when you become center. There is nothing unusal in being numb for moments and respect you have within, called conspiracy. Perception could be taken negative but if you have fact in front of you then it simply called as plan. This is state, pain literally tells that you are alive.
We can accept our mistake, we can also help some look out of the perimeter. But we need will to know. I have realised a man's biggest enemy lies within. Anger is a state when decision are made already and efforts are to allign them any how. word called anyhow literally means anyhow. After all we do mistakes till we live then why do we feel shame in leaving the beast. May be its what we call colour of life. I'd be last person on earth to boaist about my achieve ments. Of course there is proud but thats just a catalyst. Everybody knows own competency and its for yourself only then still its nothing to brag about. But there are issues those can provoke any one yes anyone.
Under skin, every body has something to justify self then what to do? Here I gotta learn what do we mean when we say adjustment. Biggest proof for the statement is nowhere away but very much close to us and its this world. You can devide whole world in every individual characteristics. How many no? Well cant count yet our world moves.

If we synchronise all those parts together then no doubt it would be called a better place to live but unfortunately we cant because even if you put yourself lower, it might not provoke to behave same way.
Then what? Life is a journey not a destination.

So question is we hurt till we think we have lost something lovable but isn't it that lovable something also lost a lovely heart too ? Well there is no loss if we have no attachment but again isn't it a useless life when you exist but not alive. While god gave you opportunity to feel the pleasure and joys around by exchanging sweetest gift of smile of a cute kid, you just made happy by offering a vanilla.

Happy Birthday

2009-12-28T01:48:00.003+05:30

So it's birthday, well is it like that older by one more year or wiser by one more year? I think it's all about how do you look at it. rite ?

Aarambh Hai Prachand,

2009-06-24T11:48:00.002+05:30

आरम्भ है प्रचंड बोल मस्तकों के झुंड,
आज जंग की घडी की तुम गुहारदो |

(आरम्भ है प्रचंड बोल मस्तकों के झुंड, आज जंग की घडी की तुम गुहार दो
आन बाण शान या की जान का हो दान आज एक धनुष के बाण पे उतार दो)
आरम्भ है प्रचंड

(मन्न करे सो प्राण दे, जो मन्न करे सो प्राण ले
वही तोह एक सर्वशक्तिमान है ) - 2
कृष्ण की पुकार है ये भागवत का सार है
की युद्ध ही तोह वीर का प्रमाण है,
कौरवो की भीड़ हो या पांडवो का नीड़ हो
जो लड़ सका है वोह ही तोह महान है |
जीत की हवास नहीं, किसी पे कोई वश नहीं
क्या जिंदगी है ठोकरों पे मार दो
मौत अंत है नहीं तोह मौत से भी क्यों डरे
ये जाके आसमान में दहाड़ दो |

आरम्भ है प्रचंड बोल मस्तकों के झुंड
आज ज़ंग की घडी की तुम गुहार दो
आन बाण शान, या की जान का हो दान,
आज एक धनुष के बाण पे उतार दो |
आरम्भ है प्रचंड

(हो दया का भाव या की शौर्य का चुनाव
या की हार का वोह घांव तुम यह सोच लो) -2
या की पुरे भाल पर, जला रहे विजय का लाल
लाल ये गुलाल तुम सोच लो,
रंग केसरी हो या मृदंग केसरी हो
या की केसरी हो ताल तुम यह सोच लो

जिस कवी की कल्पना में जिंदगी हो प्रेम गीत
उस कवी को आज तुम नकार दो
भीगती नसों में आज, फूलती रगों में आज

आग की लपट का तुम बखार दो

आरम्भ है प्रचंड बोल मस्तकों के झुंड

आज ज़ंग की घडी की तुम गुहार दो

आन बाण शान, या की जान का हो दान,

आज एक धनुष के बाण पे उतार दो |

आरम्भ है प्रचंड


Aarambh Hai Prachand,Bole Mastako Ke Jhund
Aaj Jung Ki Ghadi Ki Tum Guhar Do

Aan Baan Shaan Ya Ki Jaan Ka Ho Daan

Aaj Ek Dhanush Ke Baarn Pe Utaar Do

Aarambh Hai Prachand,Bole Mastako Ke Jhund
Aaj Jung Ki Ghadi Ki Tum Guhar Do
Aan Baan Shaan Ya Ki Jaan Ka Ho Daan
Aaj Ek Dhanush Ke Baarn Pe Utaar Do
Aarambh Hai Prachand


Mann Kare So Praan De, Jo Mann Kare So Praan Le
Wahi To Ek Sarv Shaktimaan Hai
Ishr Ki Pukaar Hai Yeh Bhagwat Ka Saar Hai
Ki Yudh Hi To Veer Ka Pramaan Hai
Kauravo Ki Bheed Ho Ya Pandavo Ka Neer Ho
Jo Lad Saka Hai Wo Hi To Mahaan Hai
Jeet Ki Hawas Nahi, Kisi Pe Koi Vash Nahi
Kya Zindagi Hai Thokaro Pe Maar Do
Maut Anth Hai Nahi To Maut Se Bhi Kyu Dare?
Yeh Jaake Aasmaan Mein Dahaad Do

Aarambh Hai Prachand, Bole Mastako Ke Jhund
Aaj Jung Ki Ghadi Ki Tum Guhar Do
Aan Baan Shaan Ya Ki Jaan Ka Ho Daan
Aaj Ek Dhanush Ke Baarn Pe Utaar Do
Aarambh Hai Prachand…

Ho Daya Ka Bhaav Ya Ki Shaurya Ka Chunaav
Ya Ki Haar Ka Wo Ghaav Tum Yeh Soch Lo

Ya Ki Poore Bhaal Bhar Jala Rahe Vijay Ka Laal
Laal Yeh Gulaal, Tum Yeh Soch Lo
Rang Kesari Ho Ya Mridang Kesari Ho Ya Ki
Kesari Ho Laal Tum Yeh Soch Lo..

Jis Kavi Ki Kalpana Mein Zindagi Ho Prem Geet
Uss Kavi Ko Aaj Tum Nakaar Do
Bheegti Nasso Mein Aaj, Phoolti Rago Mein Aaj
Aaj Aag Ki Lapat Ka Tum Baghaar Do

Aarambh Hai Prachand, Bole Mastako Ke Jhund
Aaj Jung Ki Ghadi Ki Tum Guhar Do
Aan Baan Shaan Ya Ki Jaan Ka Ho Daan
Aaj Ek Dhanush Ke Baarn Pe Utaar Do
(Aarambh Hai Prachand)
Hoye Hoye Hoye…

from haqikat.........

2009-04-09T16:04:00.000+05:30

Main yeh soch kar us ke dar se uthaa tha
Voh rok le gi mujh ko, mana le gi mujh ko
Hawaaon mein lehraata aata tha daaman
Ke daaman pakad kar bithaa le gi mujh ko
Qadm is aandaaz se uth rahe the
Ke aawaaz de kar bulaa le gi mujh ko.

Magar us ne roka na mujh ko manaya
Na daaman hi pakda na mujh ko bithaaya
Na aawaaz hi di na mujh ko bulaaya
Main aahista-aahista badta hi aaya
Yahan tak ke us se juda ho gaya ...

-Poet : Kaifi Azmi

I know yup i know........

2009-02-20T17:25:00.004+05:30

Koi diwana kehta hai, koi pagal samajhta hai,

Magar dharti ki baichani ko bas badal samajhta hai.
Main tujhse door kaisa hoon, tu mujhse door kaisi hai,
Yeh tera dil samajhta hai ya mera dil samajhta hai.

Mohabbat ek ehsason ki pawan si kahani hai,
Kabhi kabira diwana tha, kabhi mira diwani hai.
Yahan sab log kahte hain meri aankhon mein ansoon hain,
Jo tu samjhe to moti hai, jo na samjhe to pani hai.

Samandar pir ka andar hai lekin ro nahin sakta,
Yeh ansoon pyar ka moti hai, isko kho nahin sakta.
Meri chahat ko dulhan tu bana lena, magar sun le,
Jo mera ho nahin paya, woh tera ho nahin sakta

Moment wishes.......

2009-01-16T10:43:00.004+05:30

Mere man ye bata de tu

kis aur chala hai tu
kya paya nahi tune,
jo dhoond raha hai tu
Jo hai ankahi, jo hai unsuni
vo bat kya hai bata
Mitwa....

Kahe dhadkane tujse kya !

You know........

2009-01-14T07:52:00.003+05:30

maybe this is why
we fall in love

because we cannot
change the ending

... but with love
we can change the story

sometimes
I feel
I don't need love
I really don't
because
love is an antidote to loneliness
... and I am not lonely
I am alone !

Under My Skin

2009-01-09T02:01:00.005+05:30

There is some one under my skin, I hate. Its not that i haven't tried hard enough to patch up with it. I tried my best but he refused to co-operate and brought unbearable pain for me. Now after 25-26 yrs, I revolt and say him to leave me but unsuccessful so far. No matter what I did to avoid him, he didn't leave. With everyday my hate for him increases a bit more. I can't explain how foolish this chap is.

Such an idiot who says we should always remain sensible. We should trust each other. He says love is the most strongest force, dedication can make true every dream, we have. He also says what if you were unsuccessful in achieving some thing at some point of time, doesn't mean you stop trying. One person broke your trust, cheated you, played with your emotions and all this when person know, how much affection/trust you put in that fellow, not a right reason to not make friends again, never fall in love again, to not trust anyone. After all its just a person who made you go through all the pain so isn't it wrong to yell at whole the world.

He further adds we humans need social life to live, no one has ever lived life fully in isolation. World is really big, every day we meet new people, they behave the way, they interpretate life. After all there is differentiation good and bad, no need to say which one lasts finally. Fellow says we should behave in a way, which we expect for our self, we may appear to be highest for moments by pushing some deserving one or more capable than our self but we will never get enough strength to overcome our (ever existent from that moment) fear to lose that place. With every moment this fear makes its grip stronger because we know, we really don't deserve the place.

At last comes a point at which we have furious argument, is, He says me to love a person, once I had some liking, tantamount to the feeling existing other side.It wont be wrong if I say, it was feeling of otherside those persuade me to think that way, no wonder if it's called rubbish now. Well lets leave them intact to know what word "Rubbish" really means.But after expressing it what I've got only snub and insult. It hurts as I don't know what was other side but in me..... leave it.

As it really doesn't matter whether It was 1st time in my life or last time. What am I? how I tackled situation, what capabilities lie in me and how and y i say, you are going to be lucky in coming life. When a person has decided to not reveal anything, he won't no matter what you thought. even after all this fellow says me to love care that person and mentions there is no ego in love. Wait, wait, wait, what did you say rubbish ? Really ? I say to person you can surely manipulate in a way, where every body will say, its me whoz troubling life of other person/u. But deep inside you know, it was your initiative, your expressions showed your mind and you can't change this fact till you are on earth. Your smartness may conceal embarassment some times but not always. I feel sorry to say that but you wouldn't have enough choice to reward your feelings and you cant complain for it to your god. If we continue to do something which is wrong by our own principles, who can help us ut? Some ppl amend ways midway but as i said some and never feel shame in apologising but i know you won't.

God exists or may not be but there is something called goodness which never return's empty handed. With every insult, it becomes more determine to achieve that and says feeling never die, what dies is, our will to feel that feeling. A person can hide, misplace feelings but can't kill them. So feelings still must be there, know the reason why ? search the answer and as you deliver the answer your love would be standing with you and also for ever. If your feelings were natural and true then its a loss for other one as it missed opportunity to be happiest and luckiest person on earth. Not just for making yourself feel good, these are natural laws which no one could ever break. Let them laugh and make a joke of it but life has a tendency to teach hard people in harder way.There are people those correctify themselves midway.

Well I don't know where this person in me, learnt all this but I know, how much these principles have cost me. For last 25 years, I have always lived life silently with his mentioned principles but all I have got is, pain and more pain. lately it has become unbearablre and now it has reached up to a point when I can't take it anymore. This pain already made me feel numb at times. Now I don't want to tread this path, he mentions.

ps: Once I asked my dad whats most difficult thing to do in our world.

He said "TO LIVE,LIFE OF A SIMPLE PERSON" !

"Dad I'm agree from day onwards."

and one day........

2009-01-05T17:01:00.001+05:30

Ek chota sa sapna tha........................... ..
Us sapne mein koi apna tha........................... ..
Us apne mein kuch sakoon tha...............
Jo zindagi ka junun tha......................
Us junoon mein ek rahat thi.............
Jo sirf teri chahat thi..............
Us chahat mein ek andaz tha............
Jo meri dhadkano ka raaz tha...........
Us raaz mein ek khushbo thi..............
Jo meri sooch ki justuju thi..............
Us justuju mein ek hararat thi...........
Jo meri khushiyoun ki sharat thi.............
Us shahrat mein mein ek ehsaas tha..........
Ke tou jo mere pass thee.....................
Us pass mein jo ek araam tha...............
Woh bas sirf ek tera NAAM tha.........................

Associations and departure.........

2009-01-03T00:43:00.005+05:30

Whatever may come but life moves forward. So is it like that we should not look around when we are passing through? But human, who is supposed to be most sensible thing god ever made, due to sheer its characteristic, cant restraint himself. Human says " I'm on my way and I also know it's a long journey whats wrong if I developed a bond with a fellow traveler? It makes me to take things easy just like natural tendency. I have every right to walk with fellow by hand in hand until it bothers him/herself." Looks sweet and sensible but non existent any where. If you see you are being interest for someone. ok, then what, just ignore and move ahead. Aah but while moving you see the pain at face and you turned put everything away for a moment. Stepped towards it slowly and anticipating pleasure he is going to deliver.
But as always truth is stranger than fiction, you stumbled when you have been asked to show identity. why ? Maybe circumstances made fellow, putting up things this way. But you never get that bonding force workin again. Even when you insisted you are earning nothing but pain. Wondering is it all ab't,what I have been listening since my childhood. Should i call myself unlucky? Honestly No, because everything around never let me approve , infact anybody at this place, where i'm standing now. Then what? How to say that I have put away all just to see a smile on this face. Is it vengeance for my late responce? I just acted when I felt it. how cd I stopped when I had nothing in my mind except reward and just reward. Sitting under a tree, searching answers for self made questions but life is not ab't survival its all about living with a mark, then what ?

Alone in Dark

2008-12-06T00:05:00.001+05:30

Every yup every thing you touch just awry. For a sec I thought, no its not truth. I'm in a dream and just gotta wakeup.
You wait desperately to get this dream over but it don't. More you try to wake up and realize it was a dream but night didnt finish and dream proves its not a dream,its realty precisely h arsh reality. Is it so easy guy asked himself. A dark night with chilled air, he just left his room and secret window let him out of this boundry. Alone in dark, lonliness is the thing he hates most but you have to live through what life puts in front of you. It's a cemetry, fear? when something takes your most precious thing than there is no fear. blank with a mind, he knows this pla ce has 2nd rank for venomous snakes of south Asia but when mind is blank, you don't feel anything. He put the carry bag aside of this small lake and a shinning oldmonk bottel comes out. After engineering days, he has almost quit drinking.
When rum runs through stomach, he felt some relief. For 30 mins he remains standing and suddenly a punch of rum made him realizes he has finished full bottle. Ja tu bhe...
and throws bottle away with full force. After few secds bottle strike and noice of shattering comes. He says bottle ke aawaj to sab sunte hai yaha saala dil he tukde tukde ho chuka hai, tafadta hai but no one listens. The only love of my life. why ? why did you this to me. He cried why did u do this. He knows he is alone in the dark all alone. May be god making my childhood wish true which is only wish i hav made everyday when i saw mom dad's suffering, God make me strong, dont wanna feel any pain, I promise i'll never fall in love to create a chance for that.
But....he is here...lone...walking alone.

The Day....

2008-10-30T06:43:00.001+05:30

No doubt, am Late n shpould have done earlier but let me keep this as a real value experience. So I call it a day, I kno its tough but I won't miss u.

Awarapan, Banjarapan..........

2008-10-11T02:17:00.002+05:30

“mai jab bhi tej chalta hun, najaare chut jaate hain
koi jab rup garhta hun to saanche* tut jaate hain….
main rota hun to aakar log kandha thapthapate hai
main hansta hun to mujhse log aksar ruth jaate hain”

* saanche= moulder - use to make different shape

But y ?

2008-10-10T14:26:00.006+05:30

ps: Faasle aise bhe honge socha na tha,
Samne tha wo shaks mere per ab wo mera na tha !

Kabhi kabhi mere dil main......

2008-08-25T23:52:00.002+05:30

Guy said people do ditch, when you least anticipate and their perfect shot come, right at the place, you never ever wish to get. In fact life has taught him, At First ppl try their luck then a well planned affair for chosen ones. Later bad mouth each other and ruin everything.

So why to go for such situation. He follwed same which resulted a very good career path. At times, when social issues came and said him that oneday you will get someone to live with remaining life. Guy thought my strength remains within me, when you have a person along with you then can I expect same? Guy realized a veryimportant part of success comes from your better half. This relation has a power to ruin your life as well as shinning above all. He thought but how come I know, howz a person? Answer came observe around and learn. This was his way of living untill he meets her. Just got attracted by first view, he wondered whats that ? n why its so? Guys has enough proposal and few of them were dream girl of friends. But the way he lived, he didnt get distracted anywhere. Even he was given a tag of arrogant, he never said anything. So whats reason for getting attracted now ? But feeling he had got was awesome and he wished for the first time in life, God just that one, Nothing else.

Next few days pass

when he confirmed, it wasnt a dream and interest shown from otherside was easily palpable. So lets settle it some day. Here comes the point when story gota twist. When he arrived, he gotta knew, fellow has gone, for a sec guy just felt like a dumb. He thought, he never gave any indication of interest and this might change equation.

aftr some more time

A person was said to be strong head, adamant and insensitive but what guy saw was completely different. So guy decided to go beyond all these where even no one can be too bad.

Peson who raised feelings said what ? me ? no mistaken. Guy knows if u dont want to accept then no one can make u do so. But why ? I'm same person. Now what? He wasnt having any plan simply because he never thought that such situation will come. As they say life has great surprises for everyone. But in case of guy it was greatest, reason behind it was that when guy was followed, he didnt show any interest because he saw n one of them carry what he wants. In fact after some more time, he had lost any hope that such person exists in real. But one more surprise.

Guy never said anything about this to anyone so he was the only perosn who can share these harsh times. After all guy had made a will to live with. He knows he can achieve everything easily but as said if u really want to enjoy your life then trust some one. When Attributes compliments perfectly, life becomes awesome.

When person come by own feet and showed a glimpe, making ur dream more beutiful. Is it so easy to come and exit someone's life. Guy said I dont know about others but as far I know, people say, its a pleasure to live life with me. No, not boasted ever but its what I heard. Guy adds further when you have, I need, to show these people why I'm so. Which I cant do alone, things around, trying their best to deviate me and letting me away from you. Everything related with you will feel pride of having me coz surely I dont have any devine power but giving my best effort is, in my hand in fact as I always did. I know no one should trust so easily so I give you my time to think about it. But give a serious look. At last, dont let me down this time, I promise you that I, wil never let down myself again at anytime of life. enf ???

Guy asks her, tell me when you were interested you must be having some emotions, where are they? dont they compell you ? dont they say you to be honest? Well if you have something which can erase every emotion then plz give me too as the only option left with me.

Situation was critical so lets see whether faith of guy wins or anything else.

Where is that cute smile yar ?

2008-08-21T14:24:00.003+05:30

It's not like that guy was angry or had any hard feeling. A girl with that virtue will only do that, even at any cost will never let herself out. In fact guy liked gal only for this virtue only. But problem is, how, how to make the girl believe, that you really loved her for this virtue only.

Guy knew you will never let yourself out, That's why guy never got angry because same vir tue is forcing girl to be like that way. Even thats why he took initiative for first time in life. His nightmare haunts every night that two right people couldn't be together in life, In fact. Guy told everything because he doesn't want to leave that person. He is doing all sorts of things to get it but sometimes every projectedion you made, makes you lose the thing which you least wanted to loose. Because past has a lot of situations like this and finally both go on their ways differently to leave a pain within. So for be different result, you needed to do things differently.
He will wait for ever n ever, coz he knows that fellow deserves best. May be you passed your tests of times n fellow come to you or say May be fellow some day believe in you and joins you to live life ahead. After all hope is not bad thing.

ps: Either gal will come soon or takes time, evident is, girl will have to come n accepts to be a pillar of strength' for youself, m more than sure for it.We may change situations but final outcome comes the way it should have come.

Happy Bday Buddy

2008-08-20T17:53:00.003+05:30

Hum apne gum ko sajakar bahar kar lenge,
Tere khayalo ko thoda sa pyar kar lenge !

Yup it your bday, May be u wont like if i come and wish, so escaped asap before my mind loose control and heart starts to impose it self. Yup I wanted to wish but I thought, its ur day n u shdnt have anything which upset u. In fact, I was here to cheer u up but it was my misinterpretation. But don't worry, I know how to deal with it.

May god fulfill your all of the dreams

Enjoy !

one more battle.

2008-08-19T01:28:00.006+05:30

Tumhe kaise me bataaun, tumhe kaise main kahoon,
mere bas main agar hoto main bas itna hi karoon,
tumhe din bar, tumhe har pal dekta hi main rahoon,
tumhe deykun tumhe chaahoon, tumhe poojun har pal,
tumhe sochun, tumhe samjun, tumhe maangoon har pal,
tumhe main gungunaaun, tumhe gaaun har pal,
main tumhara hun aisa diwana meri jaan
mera marna bi tumhi ho , mera jina bi ho tum,
meri madira bi tumhi ho, mera peena bi ho tum,
meri chaandi bi tumhi ho, mera sona bi ho tum,
mera hasna bi tumhi ho, mera rona bi ho tum,
meri saari saanson me tum jaise ho guli
meri aanke tumhe deyke, chahe bandh ho ya kulee,
main tumhara hun aisa diwana meri jaan,...
mere dil me hai ye armaan tumhe ek din paaun,
is ambar se bi aage tumhe leykar jaaoon,
jahan raahon main ho bikre sab chaand aur taare,
jahan geeton ki behete woh meete dhaare,
jahan khwabon ki duniya kabi soye nahi ho,
jahan tum ho jahan mein hun aur koi nahi ho,
main tumhara hun aisa, diwana meri jaan

"and his mind won"

2008-08-18T00:23:00.009+05:30

Guy never knew, that a story listened in childhood days, whose ending always upsets him, will gotta see so early and so close in life. Recalls the day when guy said to friends, that he will never let the same ending in his own story. There was something which haunted him every time n when he wanted to tell fellow, I have been framed so trust me now, I can not tell everything now. But surely wil do and u will proud of making decision to trust me, But fellow believed only what was plagued around and guy just glances through glass window and seeing it getting away with every second. now wat ?

Guy tells her everything honestly by thinking that, it will give an idea how pure your intentions are. But fellow, who has showed interest earlier, just thinks there is nothing special about you. As fellow now knows, Guy really inclined at fellow so now its fellow's turn to show importance by making fun of guy's feelings.

All this when some ppl tried and failed despite being a force to attract any one and lot of requests, threats and pressure have been tried and finally their bottom line was, its real tough to get that guy. But when this guy willingly comes to fellow, fellow means guy may not be the one, fellow was looking for as he doesn't carry anything of those things, he is known for.

(Truth was, guy knows there is nothing precious than character of a person and person with it must be held closely for ever and such person dont believe in ego, anger, or any other such issue. so if u want to put your stand then go and tell fellow everything honestly. If fellow agreed, u r lucky and in case not agree then ask what fellow luvs to be with in life and ur job is to be best person to fulfill that criteria, In fact it's the only way he has been taught n always lived with,whenever a time for decision comes. one day fellow will say, u deserve me n its an honor to live life with u).

But being practical, fellow thought, guy is only acting to impress, as guys now a days don't talk/think that way. So finding nothing fellow assumes there is nothing of interest in guy. Guy gotta know that fellow thinks, as no more showed interested in guy, so guy getting so desperate. Cant help but, coz when u will see ppl refuesd by him, u will wonder how can u leave such person. Guy said, they don't have wat I'm looking for. The day i will get those characteristics, I will go there with bowed head. Guy again says that if u or sm1 else don't believe in value, I do then its ur's problem. But for me truth is that only, U may think, there is ntn like morality or otherthing related. Guy replied, may be u hav't seen it working, so u dont believe in it but I have seen it working so I strongly believe in that. Just cant change my value if smody things it crap and same way i cant adopt wat u or ppl want from me. So still my reason has same value for me n u wil believe too when u see it happening one day).

Fellow laughs with friends when he tells them about guy and his proposal. Every body assumes that this guy is looking for a gal as he has become frustrated and now needs some one in his life by hook or crook. Guy starts to get a cold shoulder. With time it increases, converts in hate, irritation and finally made guy appears to be as the one who just need a pal any way so became desperate.
Guy goes and says, I want u to be with me and explains situation. But Guy surprised to see that he is, of no value any more, in fact now guy coluld be called as useless simpleton.
Now situation comes when guy knows truth expressed cant help anymore. then wat to do ? wat else ? wat to say, already truth has been mentioned. If something values most important for guy, may not carry same weightage for some one else. As they wont believe that this is the real reason behind a particular credential of guy, so everyone agrees that he is lying.

Just imagine a situation, everybody run behind guy and when guy runs after smthing quoting a thing most precious on earth. All respect goes in vain, coz guy is now requesting for getting some thing, fellow thinks guy dosnt deserve it actually, as fellow had some other issues in mind about guy, fellow was informed by sources. Although when fellow gotta know that one was lucky to get it. But just because ppl had a different perceptions u left it just for regret.

Later one day will come, guy go back to ur path with a smile to be the guy, he was earlier. Guy know everything will be achieved again easily in fact better. only pain guy had, to see fellow moving away n away and erasing every hope to convert beautiful dreams in more beautiful reality.

2nd part

One day guy did it again, better than last time, and when one day met the fellow. After few moments fellow knows what guy said, became really true and wonders what if had been trusted by me then it may be possible, today fellow was not among guests but........Guy recalls one ore time, i wish i cld tell u, it wasn't about face.

Guy smiles n only thing in life to regret is, u didn't believe me, when i say trust me just for the sake of me. Now look how beautiful my dream looks in reality. I'm sure,Together we could have done something much better even i call a miracle than what I did single handedly. But u trusted only, what they said, I wish u had looked in my eyes to know whether I'm wrong or right.
They knew now both of them hav to live lives by holding this issue within n it really hurts.....Specially when its anticipated that how beautiful dream it could have been possible, provided they had faith in each other's abilities as sometimes u have to believe what ur inner voice said not what being circulated around.

ps:Guy knows he will never accept that ending but he can do his best only wats in his hand.
That's wat guy wanted to say....so now looking other side....and can d only one thing "prayer"

Mirror says

2008-08-17T03:16:00.004+05:30

Transsiberian thrugh the wall

There were a lot to say but never got a chance to say so but still there is a hope because he has read in her eyes. Guy standing in front of mirror and said " God if u really r smwher then why this? u know everything ab't me . " Mirror said , I trust you tell me, what were those issues. Guy : 1. If its really first one even it was not in a teenage. ?? 2. What can i do? if i hav been taught to look for a precious thing by its characteristics? 3. Why all those babes never succeeded? 4. What if i'm more sensible than othr in my age? 5. Why i just feel lovely when i gotta see her. 6. Why i never took a chance earlier? 7. What if I like u and want to be with u? why i feel so good ab't u even when with everysteps I'm getting more hurtled? why i feel that i can win world if u r wid me never been so, yup feared too and wanted to say why i say so but ... when everything available at foot steep than why I j ust need u? N how good i have been ask them those missed, value is known when object is lost, it hurts Ran furiously, plz wait, I am not what u r assuming but it again taken as vice hurting more was shedding tears, hw cild i make u believe, its all to prove me wrong. It will giv impression wat i havnt ever thot or knew. But frustu is the word for guy who nvr bend his neck to see around. Now with silence is on......... only vice would be when she will know guy was true, but its too late. Guy said why dont u b natural as we were? But dont know what made gal to interpretate wrong. For once let me put my stand n result wil be prevailed.
Look, u will one day believe more than Me , in my results....but gal know, ther is noway back. Guy observing his images of dreams n suddenly say, how beautiful could it be. He turned fast n say gal, it was us, who were involve. If smthing went wrong then why shd we leave other. Gal says yes n next moment guy was busy to make a image of dream better than anything in world. Gal say.........yup, thats the way..... Guy smiled n accelerated him self a bit more fast............. coz if its true it will come back with all the world's grace...... it will.

No wher in no time

2008-08-11T17:57:00.002+05:30

Mam,
Tell me what should i do? If i'm not smart like u . I can't forget everything related to us . You can delete blog, id, accnt but tell me wat should i do ? It cant be like this. why tell me why did you this. Was it me who started this, Seriously I'll forget everything but tell me plz what the *uck i do now. Left all for you and well, you know well.

No it cant be end, coz its not well.At last everything must be well, if its not well then its not the end.

all i know....

2008-06-29T06:13:00.005+05:30

I don't know if there is god
But I know there is a thing called goodwill .
I don't know if super power exists,
But i know emotions can inspire to achieve extraordinary results.
I don't know if gun is the most powerful thing in world.
But I know courage can face and win toughest battles.
I don't know if hate helps in taking revenge.
But I know love can convert ur worst enemy , in to ur best allay.
I don't know if there is a thing called luck
But I know hard work & dedication can make u win all world.
I don't know if there is a thing called money,
But I know feelings can't be bought.
I dont know how much time i have been defeated.
But I know trying again and again has never allowed let any obstacle stop me to achieve what I desired.
I don't know how much powerful m I
But I kno faith can move mountains.
I don't know how much good look, I have got.
But i know beauty lies in eyes of the beholder.
I don't know how difficult my way is.
But I know determination is the strongest thing in this world.
I don't kno how much she hates me.
But I kno 1 da she wil b mine 4 ever
I don't know wat it costs 4 makin dreams true
But I know how beautiful my dream is .
I dont kno if success is predestined
But I know miracles do happen with ordinary people
I don't know how much trust she puts in me
But I know friendship is the strongest bond

written in my 1st yr of engg !

Not what, its about how sm1 did ...

2008-06-26T03:39:00.000+05:30

Kisi ke ek aansu per hajaro dil dhakte hai,
kisi ka umar bhar rona bhe bekar jata hai!

Moment

2008-06-12T03:13:00.005+05:30

Although all moments seem to be alike in all aspects. But differentiation exists as some special one's. A moment can be make special by taking a decision in it's realm. A decision of life time to make a promise or dream true. If you don't make your dreams true, obviously it is not someone's botheration. Decisions are best help available for realizing your dreams. If you feel down, look your life in lieu of a decision. Picture clears and you know what to do. May be it was a long gap for your creativity, but thats how we learn. Make your nearby decision in moment and make it special. Rest will follow !

p.s. Add all these special moments and you get.....what we call it "LIFE " rite ?

And u thought.........

2008-06-03T12:44:00.001+05:30

from here

2008-05-29T02:33:00.004+05:30

CHALTE CHALTE MUJHE ABHAAS HO RAHA HAI.
KADAM BADHA LO AB PRAKAASH HO RAHA HAI.
CHHUTE HUE DOST, MEET AUR PARCHHAIYAN .
MIL JAYENGI AB MUJHE VISHWAS HO RAHA HAI.

RISHTE ADHIK TUTE, BAHOOT CHHOOT GAYE,
KUCH NE TO MILNA BHI NA CHAHAA.
PICHE AB RISHTE KA KARWA AA RAHA HAI.
KADAM BADHA LO AB WO BHI SAATH HO RAHA HAI.

NAYI KOPAL, NAYE PHOOLON KA SAMAJ HO RAHA HAI.
UNKO HAATHO SE SINCHO, GALE SE LAGAAO,
IS PRAKAASH ME, AASTHA KA VIKAAS HO RAHA HAI.
KADAM BADHA LO AB PRAMOD KA AAGAAZ HO RAHA HAI.

IS NAV PRAKAASH ME KRODH, PAAP KO BHASM KARO.
SUKH SHAANTI SE AB SAMAAJ KA VIVAH HO RAHA HAI.
ASHISH DO VISHWAS DO,SAATH HONE KA AHSAAS DO.
KADAM BADHA LO AB SWARG KA VISTAAR Ho RAHA hai

Observe the trends...

2008-05-13T14:09:00.009+05:30

Ye palko ke kinare jo humne bhegoye nahi
wo samjate hai, jaise ke hum kabhi roye nahi,
Puchte hai ke kiske khwab dekhte ho rat main,
Aur hum jane kitne shiddat se soye nahi !!

Mom it's your day !

2008-05-10T20:44:00.008+05:30

These lines are dedicated to the most beautiful woman, I have been knowing so far in my life.
My "MOM", Yup it has to be u mom. There is nothing in this world which can make me to repay debt for what you have done for me. All I can do is, to give my best in never letting any tear touch your eyes.

I could give u diamonds for each tear u cried for me
if I could give u sapphires for each truth u've helped me see.
If I could give u rubies for the heartache that u've known
If I could give u pearls for the wisdom that u've shown.
Then u'll have a treasure, mother, that would mount up to the skies
That would almost match the sparkle in ur kind and loving eyes.
But I have no pearls, no diamonds, As I'm sure you're well aware
So I'll give u gifts more precious ,
my devotion, love and care.
admiration
appreciation
I consider myself fortunate when I remember I'm a part of u !.

love u n so on......for everything u hv done for me.

Colouring the day !

2008-05-01T02:16:00.011+05:30

Kehte hain agar kisi cheez ko dil se chaho to saari kayanath tumhe usse milane ki koshish me lag jaati hai..

People say that if you love something so much,then the whole world try to get you close to that thing.

Down but not out !

2008-04-29T22:07:00.007+05:30

Faisla hone se pehle, Main bhala kyu har manu,
Ke jug abhi jeeta nahi aur main abhi hara nahi !

Wotever u call it.....

2008-04-28T02:51:00.002+05:30

A Cube called Life

2008-04-26T14:41:00.012+05:30

People look at you, then they believe what they see, draw a map of your personality and put their opinion. They fight hard to put their opinion utmost, highest. If you are looking at these people and u might wonder what's their interest in someone's life? People predict your future or results of deeds you performed based on what they think you to be, the way they have been seeing you for quite some time now. And If you did something which wasn't supposed to be done by you? Lets say you did something exceptionally well, although your earlier works doesn't bear you fruits of success. Then people claim that you have got some XYZ support / favour and in any case they will not accept it's your accomplishment.

I always thought why people do like that ? why cant they just live with it ?
After putting things one by one, I knew what the problem is actually with them. No body wants to be quoted as a loser. They think you like something in their realm, when you do something different which goes out of realm, they fail. That means what they think about you, is wrong and this makes them a loser, which they are not ready to accept. Truth is that, they fail with their thinking and you made them fail. Because you never let anyone know or notice, what actually you are capable of . Or other way we can say that may be with time you grew well and learnt quickly. You made yourself capable by working hard.
Problem become worse when they compare this with their own failures. They left midway as they thought it was no more possible to do. At present you made them realize, that they can also be wrong. It makes them remember their past and first time in their life they feel leaving something mid way might have been a mistake. Results could have been something else, provided they had had kept working continuously.
So answer lies in faith, nothing taken as impossible. Try things in different view, different angle or......But surely leaving midway is never a option. Nobody taught me this, I just realized this when I gotta met a old time buddy yesterday at home. We both started together but he stopped midway and now he just knew that he was wrong in stopping midway. While seeing him off, I could anticipate he was in a state of regret for past decision. As usual I tried to cheer him by using some jokes and banters and got succeeded a bit in diverting his attention. But later I thought, It's true that nothing can bring him back those days so that he could correct it and move further again .It applies to everyone and projects how can a wrong decision can change your entire prospects.So next time you make a decision...mean it...and yup mind it coz its a real serious business buddy, you get only one shot !

a sweet memory......

2008-04-21T20:18:00.005+05:30

Its for a person I gotta meet in my last week of Mba, with whom I, wanted to talk, wanted to ask and a lot more. But scene changed before I could prepare myself ............... and I feel all that was just a dream........a lovely dream.........

Just wanna say thanxx for what you made me feel.
I m loving it.

At home..........

2008-04-19T02:02:00.006+05:30

Well when I was coming all the way to home, a fellow passenger, kinda talkative, asked about my career so far. As usual I gave him a brief about it, and as he came to knew about that I'm going back to home after Mba. He said me "it is going to be my best time, I asked "why" ? He said with a track record like your's, you will have a very good future with such a good job just being a beginning for you he further added "now don't need to worry anything at this point of time, just enjoy. I didn't give much attention for this and just smiled but his words " good time" just left somewhere in unconscious mind.
But what actually followed, I'll not call bad time . But surely one of the disturbed phase of life. Being a lone son, I always have had my own advantages and disadvantages.
It helped me in shaping career nicely , but company of siblings gives more fun to life. One more thing I realized early is that I accepted I'm alone and whatever I have got to do at my hands, is my work. Do it with pleasure or do it with pain, it's all mine. Perhaps that was one of the deciding factor in my career. In last 8 years when ever I came home, books accompanied me . This time when nothing more to do, I felt some kind of loneliness creeping with in.
But what to do ? as it's again my very own problem. But issue is whom I'm missing ? Because I have seen very closely, even If you do your best, when someone has decided to hate you, you can't change one's mind. Even if you put ego thing away, still no chance. Go close, get hurt and cry like a loser and cycle continues. So what's use to have one !
It's interesting to observe How things change at a place you left behind for perusal of your aim/dreams. In childhood, when ever we came at dad's native place, I got company of cousins and just couldn't know where time has gone. Me and cousin no2 found, we both share same frequency and with time our bond grows strongly. We both wanted to be super commando dhruv or some cony detectives of diamond comics rajan iqbal. Life was good and both us were desperately trying to grow older, to do the things, those were prohibited to children. That's not enough we tried some risky things to encourage ourself. In our achievements first comes when we both were walking on bridge made for train passage, bridge was quite long and only single way movement was possible. When we almost arrived at mid point, we just realized from opposite direction train was coming at a very fast speed. Being at the mid point and single way passage , we had one option only "to run". But my detective cousin said, even if we tried we are not going to make it before train thrashed and rip our bodies apart.
We both enjoyed doing risky things. So when train arrived at the place, we were standing, both of us were hanging from bridge by holding lower part of rail ( wooden part) on which train was moving. W e were 12 then and next 2 mins were simply enough to tell how does it feel when death just pass by your side. We felt how long is a duration of 120 seconds could be. After train was passed, we both came over an just felt like we have done some miracle or some extra ordinary job. We both didn't say anything to anyone ab't this . Ppl saw two boys hanging from bridge after train passed they rushed toward us, but we were quick enough to disappear from scene before they reached there. But what was the situtaion while hanging from bridge which was 150 mts above ground level ? Well just cant explain as it shakes me now.
Not only this, I remember that dark night when both of us left the bus midway to make a short cut through a jungle for reaching his maternal uncle's home. That place was 23 kms away and some how no 2 mark was erased and we just thought it's only 3 kms away. 5 hours journey through a place, where even in day time, no one dares to pass because it was considered haunted along with potential danger of animals, robbers . Although we also gotta know this when we reached our destination.
Today we both passed each other, by pretending as hasn't seen other one.How things changed ? None of us know. He did what he wanted to do and so did I. Career and those last 10 yrs made us different human and honestly I dont know why we both have become like that. May be it's one more shade of life.
He used to say, there are very few things/people in life, when you look at and your heart says, just give me that.........I will not ask any favor, I will get other things by myself. Although now we are different person with our own set of characteristics, I believed in it and tried myself never get into such thing. Now with all things settled well.
I have just felt, yes, there was something I missed. But I cant blame my self, initially I thought, it's my illusion there is nothing as real what my eyes see. May be it's again lone child tendency which stopped me to desire what is not in my realm. When you tread a path of some philosophy for 25 yrs of life, you just can't change your ways for what you just feel like doing that. You wait till the fog dies in dust and you can predict what to do. But right at the moment if some one replace the thing ?
Don't know what to do. No, never cry like a loser then what to do ? Ask your heart, was it real what I have seen ? Do u trust your eyes ? If you do then what your eyes saw, existed some where. Find it, win it, create it. It doesnt matter where is that thing/one now, If you know that thing is the one, you only need to create your rainbow. Then there is no regret. You will get it and believe me if your faith is true, eventually that thing will come in your way..........and thats what, I believe in, live in....cause miracle happen for those believe in them.
So let the thing/one know you are out to win it whatever was the obstacle, it was, if you are sure, That is the "1", ntn else matters, its better late than never, there is no shame in apologizing for being late and asking for what is your's. After all it takes time to ask yourself " what do you really want" ? But when you know, life looks like a dream comes true. It might not be existed earlier, but if you could create and did what you said. Then there is nothing as good as living your dream.

How ?
Winning is a game of passion, get one in anything, achievements will follow you !until you convert some impossible, in to possible. You haven't given a chance to your life to be grand, or wats use of a life if you don't have something dying for

I luv this line from movie khamoshi " wo zindgi he kya jisme ko namumken sapna na ho !"

keep watching this space

coming soon !

To See You......

2008-04-15T21:21:00.000+05:30

EUREKA !

2008-04-13T03:35:00.000+05:30

Keep ur desire burning !

2008-04-12T03:29:00.000+05:30

Angel

2008-04-10T22:36:00.003+05:30

since u hav gone......

2008-04-09T22:43:00.001+05:30

Your name in japanese

2008-04-06T14:12:00.007+05:30

Yesterday I got encounter with this thing. Lets check what does name ABHISHEK look like in Japanese. Interesting...

ABHISHEK ---- KATURIKIARIRIKUM

A - ka	B - tu	C - mi	D - te	E - ku
F - lu	G - ji	H - ri	I - ki	J - zu
K - me	L - ta	M - rin	N - to	O -mo
P - no	Q - ke	R - shi	S - ari	T -chi
U - do	V - ru	W -mei	X - na	Y - fu
Z - zi

TRY OUT FOR YOUR NAME..............

Last week of Mba

2008-03-06T12:51:00.007+05:30

Until you are alone, you don't gotta learn too much about yourself. It's gonna to be final week of Mba, a job well done . If a good job is the criteria then I think, I have done more than my wildest dream. It was a period of 2 years but drastically different from engg days. In Mba you start and you finish. And you have been rewarded with a job. Engg was a time worth what ? only those through it, know there is nothing which can replace that experience.

The day we left college it rechristianed as NIT Durgapur from REC Durgapur. Job scenario ? a junior told me few days back, almost 90 % people have 2 offers so it means remaining 10 % with 1 offer, No, they have more than 2 i.e. 3 or 4. Just think 50 % of our batch came unemployed from same place.
Now at IBS HYD, if not now then in coming 5 yrs its gonna to be one of the best campus to do ur MBA. But when we joined, well just imagine what was the situation, After admission when I put my baggage near the hostel building, I wondered for 5 mins where I'm going to live acctually. There is no plaster, no boundry wall and most funny thing where is college building, for which I came all the way.
No I'm not a pessimistic. I know things change with time. My question is " why do our generation is a victim of change?" why did it go under change right the moment our batch touch it. Apart then this in all other aspects time lived here, was fantastic. Of course with some leassons but only when u r ready to learn it.
Today I was looking for our warden for handover issues. When I gotta meet him, and shot my queries. He started to give all directions. I just felt, he is a bit annoyed, I asked sir "whats wrong? " Nothing get ur work done. I turned and started to move, right at the door, I turned back towards warden and just started staring him. He bitterly asked me "what do you want now?" I said "nothing". "Then what ?" he asked.
I don't know what happened to me I just said " Sir, u r with us right from the day one and what all we been throught( new hostel shifting, struggle with snakes, accident which took 2 lives , u statyed with us. I remember you awaking students before exams when some got missed his exam. I remember when you fought with director in meeting for giving mosquito repellant to every student. ( In fact, I was there and I was sure this guy have lost his job.) In Mba college when environment is so different in the name of corporate ethics, no one gives shit about what's wrong with his neighbour.
Not only that, a lot of issues which happened knowingly or unknowingly to students. Respect for you got bigger. I have never said earlier but today before leaving, I say you "THANKS FOR YOUR HELP". His eyes were full with tears, He said I have cared you people just like my own son. Now you people are leaving with a bright future and ofcourse a big package. Every body moved out with luggage in front of my room but not a single student except you showed up here ".
I was speechless, hostel was almost vacant and I knew I can't give him a false hope that people will show up. I left his office but for next 20 mins all two years time was making rounds in my mind. What he has done for us and what we have done with him. Afterall a thanks word doesn't take much time. Is it Mba which made all of us insensitive? I don't know ? Or is that a highly sensitive person who at times just feel like this way? watever but I'm not going to change it and I'll continue to feel same way till my senses say me t o feel as I never felt such things hamper ur professionalism, a popular belief now a days. Infact this sensetiveness made me more motivated for my career.
I surely feel relieved after talking with him and after reaching my room started to pack my bags to forget one more thing, one more unfair thing with one more day.

meri khamoshiyon mein....

2008-03-05T04:43:00.006+05:30

"meri khamoshiyon mein bhi fasana dhoondh leti hai
badi shatir hai himmat meri, jene ka bahana dhoondh leti hai

hakeekat zid kiye baithi hai chaknachur karne ko
magar meri aankhe sapna suhana dhoondh leti hai

uthati hai jo khatra har kadam par doob jaane ka
Ye meri koshish samundar mein khajana dhoondh leti hai

na chidiya ki kamai hai na karobar hai koi
wo bhe keval haunsle se aabodana dhoondh leti hai

junoon manjil ka rahon mein bachata hai bhatakne se
meri deewangi apna thikana dhoondh leti hai"

sm1 smwher

2008-02-23T00:29:00.003+05:30

&m=Naa jane kyu hota hai ye zindgi ke sath,
kisi ke jane ke bad, Dil kare yad uski choti choti bat.

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CONFESSIONS OF A ......

2008-02-13T01:20:00.003+05:30

I don't know "why i like u" ?

I don't know "how did it start"

I don't know why do your eyes tell me all expect ur name"

I don't know how long will it last

I don't know why do I don't like others

I don't know why I don't want to know what d u think about me.

I don't know why did you look at me

I don't know why u don't tell me anything.

I don't know why I don't talk with u

I don't know If its all a dream

I don't know if u r in luv with some one

I don't know why dont u reply my message

I dont know u like me or detest me.

I dont know what ppl think when I look at u

I dont know how to approach with u

I don't know why I never had a girl friend

I dont know why I never scared of living alone

I dont know why I forget everything when I look at u

I dont know why ur smile is so cute

I dont know whether it's rite time to talk about or not

I don't know why I fear about losing u

I dont know why I never bowed my head in front of , something I don't like

I dont know why I cant liv without you

I dont know why I want to be with you

I dont know why I never share my inside

I dont know why I still luv you

I dont know why I want to win u

I don't know why I easily convert all impossible into possible.

I dont know why I just want u to be in my life

I dont know y I want u to be with at top

I don't know why with u, from where I draw strength to win all obstacles

But all I know is that ..........I will continue doing so....coz I luv to do this and I never asked any favor coz in my view, wat I am doing, gives me a faith. Faith makes me deserving and then. every desire come to me says" yup! u won me I'm all urs.

Just wait for the day when u will say.......yup ! u won me, I'm all urs..........perfect.............

I Love You !

2007-12-14T00:45:00.002+05:30

When U Were Only 5 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U...
U Asked Me: "What Is It?"
When U Were 15 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U....
U Blushed.. U Look Down And Smile..

When U Were 20 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U..
U Put Ur Head On My Shoulder And
Hold My Hand.. Afraid That I Might Dissapear..

When U Were 25 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U..
U Prepare Breakfast And Serve It In
Front Of Me, And Kiss My Forhead N
Said : "U Better Be Quick, Is's Gonna Be Late.."

When U Were 30 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U..
U Said: "If U Really Love Me, Please
Come Back Early After Work.."

When U Were 40 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U..
U Were Cleaning The Dining Table And
Said: "Ok Dear, But It's Time For U To Help Our Child With His/Her Revision.."

When U Were 50 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U..
U Were Knitting And U Laugh At Me..

When U Were 60 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U..
U Smile At Me..

When U Were 70 Yrs Old. I Said I Love U..
We Sitting On The Rocking Chair With Our Glasses On.. I'm Reading Your Love Letter That U Sent To Me 50 Yrs Ago..
With Our Hand Crossing Together..

When U Were 80 Yrs Old, U Said U Love Me!
I Didn't Say Anything But Cried..

That Day Must Be The Happiest Day Of My Life! Because U Said U Love Me!!!

High hopes

2007-11-01T22:54:00.002+05:30

Some times you decide to do, what you have been avoiding for quite some time now. May be it was procedure or any arbit phenomena, well finaly of no use. You can not start everything again. Carrying what you have got and more important your very own attitude. One small step and encouraging self was a novice approach. Midway some where carrer, life, ...elevate you to the level.

Puting voids together and filling one by one, was never a easy job. Just follow what Heart says and mind believe in...........lets face..........learn winning in a new way.........live life ur way.........ur kind of life............learning from self.........yup.

Bus yunhi.....

2007-11-01T21:11:00.002+05:30

Jab chaha jazbat se khela, jab chaha dil tod diya ;
Humne bhe aise logo se milna julna chod diya !

Try Me ............

2007-10-03T09:49:00.001+05:30

Har pal, har dam jale ye man......

2007-09-16T01:15:00.000+05:30

Ankho ne jo dekh hai wo khawbo main bhe dekha na tha,

Itna badal jaega tu maine kabhi socha na tha..........!

a word called FCUK !

2007-09-09T15:15:00.000+05:30

Sound vulgar ?

I don't think so . Even I have one great philosopher, supporting my point of view. He say" It's a magical word". Its a boundary less word. It contain so much varieties. It's such a beautiful world. English language should be proud of this word. None other language has such beautiful word. It can describe pain, pleasure, hate,love. In grammar it falls in various categories.

It can be used as verb.

Transitive.
John fcuked Mary .

Intransitive
Mary was fcuked by John.

Noun
Mary is a fine fcuk.

Adjective
Mary is fcuking beautiful.

so u see not so versatile word. Now look on some situations.

Ignorance
Fcuk, If I know.

Trouble
I'm fcuked now.

Aggression
Fcuk you !

Displeasure
Wat the fcuk is going on ?

Difficulty
I can't understand this fcuking job.

Incompetence
He is a fcuk off.

Suspicion
Wat the fcuk r u doing ?

Enjoyment
I had a fcuking time.

Request
Get the fcuk out of here.

Hostility
I am going to knock your fcuking head off.

Greeting
How the fcuk are you ?

Apathy
Who gives a fcuk.

Innovation
Get a fcuking bigger hammer.

Surprise
Fcuk u, scared the shit out of me.

Anxiety
Today is really fcuked.

so what d u think now ?

B for beauty....

2007-09-07T13:05:00.002+05:30

Funny part of queen's own language !

2007-09-02T03:30:00.000+05:30

Let's get started.....

Private school: No trespassing without permission.

Hotel bedroom,

Japan : Guests are requested not to smoke or do other disgusting behaviours in bed.

Doctor's surgery,

Rome: Specialist in women and other diseases.

Cocktail lounge, Norway: Ladies are requested not to have children in the bar.

Hotel, Acapulco: The manager has personally passed all the water served here.

Hotel air conditioner instructions,

Japan: Cooles and heates: if you want condition of warm air in your room, please control yourself.

Zoo, Hungary: Please do not feed the animals. If you have any suitable food, give it to the guard on duty.

Restaurant, Nairobi: Customers who find our waitresses rude ought to see the manager.

Car rental brochure,

Tokyo: When passenger of foot heave in sight, tootle the horn. Trumpet him melodiously at first, but if he still obstacles your passage then tootle him with vigour.

River highway: Take notice: when this sign is under water, this road is impassable.

Poster: Are you an adult that cannot read? If so, we can help.

Restaurant: Open seven days a week, and weekends too.

Automatic hand dryer in public lavatory: Do not activate with wet hands.

Maternity ward: No children allowed.

Cemetery Persons are prohibited from picking flowers from any but their own graves.

Restaurant menu, Switzerland : Our wines leave you nothing to hope for.

Temple, Bangkok: It is forbidden to enter a woman even a foreigner if dressed as a man.

Hotel bedroom, Thailand: Please do not bring solicitors into your room.

Hotel brochure, Italy : This hotel is renowned for its peace and solitude. In fact, crowds from all over the world flock here to enjoy its solitude.

Hotel bedroom, Japan: You are invited to take advantage of the chambermaid.

Hotel, Yugoslavia: The flattening of underwear with pleasure is the job of the chambermaid.

Hotel lobby, Bucharest: The lift is being fixed for the next day. During that time we regret that you will be unbearable.

Supermarket, Hong Kong: For your convenience, we recommend courteous, efficient self-service.

Hotel, Moscow (opposite Russian orthodox monastery): You are welcome to visit the cemetery where famous Russian and soviet composers, artists, and writers are buried daily except Thursday.

From the Soviet Weekly: There will be a Moscow exhibition of Arts by 15,000 Soviet Republic

painters and sculptors. These were executed over the past two years.

Newspaper, East Africa: A new swimming pool is rapidly taking shape since the contractors have thrown in the bulk of their workers.

Black Forest, Germany : It is strictly forbidden on our Black Forest camping site that people of different sex, for instance, men and women, live together in one tent unless they are married with each other for this purpose.

Hotel, Zurich: Because of the impropriety of entertaining guests of the opposite sex in the bedroom, it is suggested that the lobby be used

Laundry, Rome: Ladies, leave your clothes here and spend the afternoon having a good time.

Advertisement for donkey rides,

Thailand: Would you like to ride on your own ass?

Hotel bedroom, Moscow: If this is your first visit to the user, you are welcome to it.

Tourist agency, Czechoslovakia: Take one of our horse-driven city tours. We guarantee no miscarriages.

Dentist's advertisement, Hong Kong: Teeth extracted by the latest Methodists.

Airline, Copenhagen: We take your bags and send them in all directions.

And finally on gate outside our society compound: Warning: trace passers not allowed.

jeena ise ka nam hai....... ;-)

2007-08-30T21:14:00.001+05:30

A 10-year-old boy decided to learn Judo despite the fact that he had lost his left arm in a terrible car accident. The boy began lessons with an old Japanese judo master. The boy was doing well, so he couldn"t understand why, after three months of training, the master had taught him only one move.

"Sensei," the boy finally said, "Shouldn"t I be learning more moves?" "This is the only move you know, but this is the only move you"ll ever need to know," the sensei replied.

Not quite understanding, but believing in his teacher, the boy kept training.

Several months later, the sensei took the boy to his first tournament. Surprising himself, the boy easily won his first two matches. The third match proved to be more difficult, but after some time, his opponent became impatient and charged; the boy deftly used his one move to win the match. Still amazed by his success, the boy was now in the finals.

This time, his opponent was bigger, stronger, and more experienced. For a while, the boy appeared to be completely outclassed. Concerned that the boy might get hurt, the referee called a time-out. He was about to stop the match when the sensei intervened. "No," the sensei insisted, "Let him continue." Soon after the match resumed, his opponent made a critical mistake: he dropped his guard. Instantly, the boy used his move to pin him. The boy had won the match and the tournament.

On the way home, the boy and sensei reviewed every move in each and every match. Then the boy summoned the courage to ask what was really on his mind. "Sensei, how did I win the tournament with only one move?"

"You won for two reasons," the sensei answered. "First, you"ve almost mastered one of the most difficult throws in all of judo.

"And second, the only known defense for that move is for your opponent to grab your left arm."

The boy"s biggest weakness had become his biggest strength.

Sometimes we feel that we have certain weaknesses and we blame others, the circumstances and our self for it, but we never think that our weakness can become our strength one day. Each of us is special, so never think you have any weakness, never think of pride or pain, just live your life to its fullest and extract the best out of it.

p.s. "You have powers you never dreamed of. You can do things you never thought you could do. There are no limitations in what you can do except the limitations of your own mind."

The "Chak De INDIAN"

2007-08-22T05:12:00.003+05:30

Shah Rukh Khan is reaping the rewards of playing it differently.

At a time, when the nation seems gripped by cricket, the actor has chosen to play coach of an Indian women's hockey team in the just-released Chak De! India . A story of shame, disillusionment, and glory at last, has hit the right note critically. A tale of how we forget our heroes and continue to condemn accidentally-perceived villains.

It belongs to a soft-spoken man from Indore, who was sentenced to 16 years of misery and national censure only because he chose not to speak. Pakistan beat India 7-1 in the final of the 1982 Asian Games. The blame for the collective loss came on one man -- Mir Ranjan Negi. For a nation looking to make sense, the shocking result, after India started as favorites, the most damning thought took root. Someone raised his hand, pointed a finger at Negi and labeled him a traitor. 'He was offered one lakh for every goal he let in,' said the Hindi edition of the now defunct newspaper Blitz , concluding that the Indian goalkeeper sold himself for seven lakh rupees.

There was no defense from Negi. His teammates, though Negi assures, stood by him, did not defend him either. The Indian hockey Federation, embarrassed by the whole situation, dropped the goalkeeper like a hot potato. The allegations were thus justified. "Wherever I went people used to say, 'Oh! You are the one who took money'," recalls Negi. He never again wore the India colors. His house was attacked. Mid-way through his wedding ceremony in Indore, power was cut-off and the rest of the function took place in darkness. "I cannot tell you what I went through at that time. I was scared to go out of my house. I grew a beard so that people would not recognize me. My relatives would take me around and introduce me as a national goalkeeper; they did it all innocently not knowing how much it hurt me."

But the soft-spoken man lived with that hurt for 16 years, never once abandoning the game that was the cause of his downfall.

Then, one day, came a reprise came in the form of an offer to coach the Indian goalkeepers for the 1998 Asian Games. As fate would have it, India won the men's gold after beating South Korea via the penalty shoot-out. Ashish Ballal, who was not in the goalkeepers' camp and who had been brought in on Negi's insistence, emerged hero. Negi then went on to help the women's hockey team win the gold medal in 2003 Afro-Asian Games. But, still, none of all this success vindicated him more than the movie Chak De! India has. After facing the fury of the nation, none could have moved the country more than a film, India's biggest mass medium, on Negi's despair and eventual triumph.

"But I don't think the movie covers even 10 per cent of what I went through," says Negi, who not only coached the hockey players to help them play their part to perfection, but helped the filmmakers with visualizing and making the story-boards.

Even so, "It is Shahrukh Khan's film," he insists. "I don't want to be a hero."

p.s. I'm sure he is not the only one in a population of 1 billion. Think about them for a moment. Yup, that's why, we look like dumb at Olympics and other grand level game competitions. Athletics are made by continuous encouragement and we have to accept that we people do only negative criticism if some one want to try one's hand .

Nothing Else Matters.

2007-07-31T21:07:00.000+05:30

My interpretation of the only song that I can't live without,

:-)

"Nothing Else Matters" by Metallica.

"So close no matter how far, couldn't be much more from the heart"

Two people loving each other, no matter the distance apart. And speaking with that person in which you love, always comes from your heart. Speaking without thought of what your saying comes from the heart.

"Forever trusting who we are, and nothing else matters."

Forever relying on our hearts, where the most powerful feelings come from. And how the world, when viewed from this place, could crumble, and would not make one difference.

"Never opened myself this way"

This person is the first one to make him feel like opening up, the first one to show him enough understanding and concern to make him feel inclined to show her so much of himself.

"Life is ours we live it our way"

You go by what you trust and when you trust who each are, you don't follow anyone, you live your lives your way.

"All these words I don't just say"

The man who's writing is a rather silent one. For some silent ones, the only way to express what they don't find words for is to take a pen… and a guitar if they can. He doesn't "just say" them, because at the time of use, this could not escape his lips.

"And nothing else matters"

Despite the things that aren't said, he is talking to someone who understands him like never anyone before, the things he does, the way he acts and lives is life is enough to show what he means, the way he feels. Then, the words don't really matter anymore.

"Trust I seek and I find in you"

He's been searching for trust in himself and this leads him to search for what he can trust in the outside world too. Well, he found trust in himself as well as in someone else.

"Every day for us something new"

Every day is Christmas.Life is that way when you live it your own way: each day bringing you new challenges, new gifts, surprises… It doesn't keep you from disappointment unless you welcome each event as a present, whatever it might be, however tough or sweet it may feel.

"Open mind for a different view and nothing else matters"

What doesn't look like a present from a certain point of view, may look like one from another. What you may need sometimes is not to change things but to change the way you see them: to keep your mind opened.

"Never cared for what they do, never cared for what they know, but I know"

...&....

"Never cared for what they say, never cared for games they play"

The independent mind, the one who trusts his heart, who doesn't "give a shit"… about pieces of advice given by people who don't really know him, about criticism coming from people who don't really care for him, about teachings from people who haven't been where he's been. He doesn't listen to them but he knows: he's not learning from others, he's learning from his heart, from what he can trust,… what he found of him in her. And there even seems to be much more in this.

"Ya knooooooooooooowoooooooo"

it sounds as a gaze given at a painful past and then turned towards the days to come, a future expected with trust in oneself, trust in one's ability to face it all again if it should come back.

Stil fresh.....

2007-07-26T16:56:00.001+05:30

Kiss your past good bye................

2007-05-10T00:00:00.000+05:30

10 may yup that was the date when I arrived home after completing my engineering from NIT Durgapur. I smelt change, it was due for quite some time then. Some times, you just feel everything new, fresh. Things changed but not mind. Then again situations shaped like before. Courage, isn't the right word, you are afraid of. But coming years gave ups and downs at extreme corners.

Wait a minute ? Can I say that those were extreme? No, none until soul and body devoid their association and irony is that,even if u realized how will you express. New things .....all new world, asks for changed ways, making life a mystery. What I have found most important is " Overview". How d u look at ? and how do u perceive it. Once you have drawn overview, things flows in the direction you want it to be. This is the thing I haven't reckoned. Still and much better onwards, just imagine a race competition. So many participants but winner is one. The one who had a clear overview of moments which passed during race. Courage, hard work, dedication all comes later but a well planned overview is a must and of course 1st. No regrets what have been up to or where all it gone, because it's a process which bring us closer too plan all parts to form a overview and when you have an idea about what you gonna to get, obviously no regrets for what You did lose in way. A exciting journey starts even far more than your wildest dream. Live it with love.............after all you are the best creation of god/nature.

a willz

2007-05-01T00:49:00.000+05:30

One more prediction......

2007-04-25T13:28:00.001+05:30

Those born in Dec

This straight-up means you are the best-looking person possible. Better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends, Abiding. Able to show character. One guy/girl kind of person. lovable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves music. Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up, easily bored, Fussy Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt, sensitive.

[A hot new guy/girl will catch your eye & you will catch theirs too.]

Difference lies in DNA

2007-04-23T02:00:00.002+05:30

Same words can change life drastically. how ? look here.................

HE:.............................................................................................................
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...................................................................................... BUT, I LOVE YOU !

SHE : I LOVE YOU, BUT .....................................................
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LIFE IS REALLY FUNNY .....RIGHT ?

REFRESH....

2007-04-15T19:02:00.001+05:30

Last few months have been selflessly crazy, yet I have lost more than otherwise. Just not feeling nice, what to do ? I got to remember a female who knows me more than I know. My sister, Dad I'm going at sis place.....5 hours later I'm here at her home.
Her kids made me realize I'm very much alive........ when u have a nice time, u think so.... and poetry flows in every thing
( until u do know you have to be a good human before creating any thing ........yup any...).
well gotta stuck on this blog sweet yet short and yes saying as much as u can extract.

He again asks "Y do u love me"
nd she says..."Coz..U r the ONE! "

"There is always some madness in love, but there is also always some reason in madness"

reference:http://she-met-him.blogdrive.com/

Isn't it ?

2007-04-11T23:55:00.000+05:30

Have fun

2007-04-09T23:28:00.000+05:30

Last night I got to know ab't this site of numerology, I don't know this science exist or not. But lets analyze how much truth is there ....or how much close the prediction is. Well in last 25 years a person can distinguish his strength or weakness......means can have an idea ab't what he/she is up to.

so lets play the game

Name number in Numerology

"Names have vibratory numbers in numerology"

You can obtain the vibratory name of your number by translating the letters of your name into figures.Then add their total and reduce them to prime numbers.

The name number of a person is expression of his developed personality.

Letters and Corresponding Vibrations

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9

A B C D E F G H I

J K L M N O P Q R

S T U V W X Y Z

How to find YOUR name number ?

To find name number every letter in the name should be given its appropriate value and all the figures should be added and re added till you get a single digit number.
eg:Name number of Sachin will be calculated as follows:

S A C H I N

1 + 1 + 3 + 8 + 9 + 5 = 27

Now reducing the numbers : 2+7=9

Thus we found out that name number of sachin is 9

your name number for your name...Abhishek..... 9

ABHISHEK = 1+2+8+9+1+8+5+2 = 9

YOUR name number is 9.

CHARACTERISTICS:

No. 9 shows a powerful personality capable of high development.

It promises success through artistic ability and creative channels. They have wonderful magnetic qualities.

No. 9 people fail to recognize their own talents.

No. 9 people have art , music skill and inventive abilities.

No. 9 people apply themselves to high and honorable achievements.

No. 9 people can influence other people and guide them.

Since 9 denotes power -pride , arrogance and self interest can prove serious pitfalls.

Destiny Number in Numerology

MINE destiny number is 3.
As this is a number of self - expression , YOU will obviously function most effectively where this expression can be of value.Positions in which YOU deal with the public at great length would be the most advantageous.

Judge, Sales person , publicity director , attorney , actor , writer , social correspondent , theatrical director or producer , playwright , photographer , model , politician ,Sunday-school ,maitre'd or hostess ,restaurant manager ,anything to do with food or fashion ,entertainer, interior designer.

With the combination of expressiveness and creative talent given to a 3 personality YOU will always find contentment in fields of the arts and must never be relegated to less creative or exciting fields.

Dealing with the public is paramount.

Birth Number in Numerology

Just reduce your birth day number to a single digit by continuously adding the digits.

eg : If you were born on 24-th of a month then :

2 + 4 = 6

Thus you got 6 as your birth number.

Birth number can be used to find your:

Lucky Stones
Predict lucky days of a week
Predict lucky days of a month
colors that brings you luck
Character of number 1 people:

Number one symbolizes Sun. One is the basic of all numbers. Since your birth, number is one you are creative individual and have a positive attitude.

for mine 28 Dec being the date of birth lucky no is 1
relates to all people born on 1, 10, 19 and 28.
YOU are ambitious.You dislike restraint. You raise high in career and professions. Colleagues and subordinates respect you.
You should carry out your plans and programs on days that vibrate to your number i.e., on 1 st, 10 th, 19 th and 28 th of a month.
The days of week most fortunate to you are Sundays and Mondays.
Most fortunate colors :all shades of gold , yellows and bronze to golden brown.Your lucky jewels : topaz , amber ,yellow diamond and all stones of these colors.

Lucky colors corresponding to birth numbers are :

Birth Number Lucky colors

1 - All shades of gold ,yellow, bronze to golden brown.

Birth Numbers and the corresponding auspicious days of a week.

Birth Number Auspicious days.

1 - Sundays and Mondays.

Month numbers in Numerology

January -1

February -2

March - 3

April - 4

May - 5

June - 6

July - 7

August -8

September - 9

October - 10 = 1+0 = 1

November - 11 = 1+1= 2

December - 12 = 1+2 = 3

in mine case - 3 - These people are so free from worry that they fail to take their nature seriously.So they fail by not making any attempt.

Week numbers in Numerology

Days and their corresponding numbers.

Sunday - 1

Monday - 2

Tuesday - 3

Wednesday - 4

Thursday - 5

Friday - 6

Saturday - 7

THAT WAY.........

2007-04-08T23:26:00.001+05:30

I
WAITED
RIGHT
TIME
BUT
WHEN

IT
DIDN'T
COME.
I
MADE
RIGHT
WHAT

TIME

I
HAD
AT
MY
HAND !

वो खुद ही तय करते है ऊचाई आसमानो की
दी नही जाती ताळीम परिनदो को उडानो की

For the sake of.................

2007-04-08T21:20:00.002+05:30

If you believe in god , life is easy but if u don't then .....? Do interpretations..... Well how much effort you have been putting, only you know and yes so does god. Enough to be satisfy at your own. But success is not guaranteed because it has be created . Results verify it. You did ur best in fact much more than what you would have in your own case. But results make you believe that you have been failed and worse you don't believe in god. Battle was tough but a fighter doesn't lose his night's sleep.He might lose tomorrow/He might win too. What was sure,is, he will fight. It's the thing he was taught, his duty, his passion, his charm and win doesn't come alone. It comes on the shoulders of losses.
But what was different ? It was cause for which you stand. I can say," I'm a man who takes losses with not less charm win which comes with win". And cause was not malicious. It was all about to win. To win a smile, to prove a point. But life doesn't offer retakes. I don't have problem with defeats when it's worth accepting.So who will justify you? but can that person feels like me?

can u trust me again ?
can u accept me with this defeat
can u believe in my dream which left midway
can u trust me when I have lost ability which was my weapon.

I know,I will regain , even stronger ,stand but with you or with out you ?

I hope time has some answer for all this.

Some times golden dreams deceive you and hurt most when faith of cause wanders.

Still i will be what I'm and would say truth may be it has some thing worth believing.

It's a price for seeing some 0ne else's dream from ur eyes just for the sake of making some one confident about journey.
may b
may b
may b
may b
Let me accept it as an experience ....... finally it's up to me, how to interpret it.

May be you know me.

really ?

and once a loser, wins all the world.

p.s. Never Judge a book by its cover !

A for AWESOME......................

2007-03-28T08:21:00.001+05:30

@nd wolf comes.................

2007-03-20T18:46:00.000+05:30

Jackson: What country you from?
BEAT: What?
Jackson: What ain't no country I ever heard of. Do they speak English in what?
BEAT: What? I'm sorry...what are you talking about?
Jackson: Say what again. Say . . . what . . . again! I dare you. I double dare you, motherfucker. Say what again one more Goddamn time. Vincent: And you know what they call a ... a ... a Quarter Pounder with cheese in Paris?
Jules: They don't call it a Quarter Pounder with cheese?

Vincent: No man, they got the metric system. They wouldn't know what the fuck a Quarter Pounder is.

Jules: Then what do they call it?

Vincent: They call it a "Royale" with cheese.

Jules: A "Royale" with cheese! What do they call a Big Mac?

Vincent: A Big Mac's a Big Mac, but they call it "le Big-Mac".

Jules: "Le Big-Mac"! Ha ha ha ha! What do they call a Whopper?

Vincent: I dunno, I didn't go into Burger King.

Oh I'm sorry, did I break your concentration? You were saying something about 'best intentions'? Oh, you were finished! Well then allow me to retort..."
I don't wanna hear about no mother fuckin' ifs. All I wanna hear from your ass is, "You ain't got no problem, Jules. I'm on the motherfucker. Go back in there, chill them niggers out and wait for the calvary which should be coming directly." "
"The path of the righteous man is beset on all sides by the inequities of the selfish and the tyranny of evil men. Blessed is he who, in the name of charity and good will, shepherds the weak through the valley of darkness, for he is truly his brother's keeper and the finder of lost children. And I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger those who attempt to poison and destroy my brothers. And you will know my name is the Lord when I lay my vengeance upon you."

ye mera prem-patra padh kar.....

2007-03-19T02:02:00.001+05:30

Jane kyu..

2007-02-28T14:58:00.001+05:30

aj raat b ankho mein khwab tera aaya tha..
Phir yaad aye wo din..
jab main teri parchai aur tu mera saaya tha..!!

Tu hi tha mera humkadam,mera humraaz mera humsaaya tha..
Meri har shikast mein bhe mujhe hasi,
mujhe hosla tune dilaya tha..
Jab mere mukaddar k manjhi ne kinaare ki aas chod di

Tab tune hi mujhe zindagi ke sahil se milaya tha..
Meri silsi hui zindai mei b Bus ek tu hi hawa ban k aaya tha…
Aaj phir roshni maddham si lagti hai..
Aur dil dhundta hai wo diya jo tune jalaya tha..

Aaj phir khadi hu lehro k beech..
aur dhund rahi hu uss ajnabee sahil ko..
Jisne kabi khud mujhe apne hatho se bahaya tha !

SOME TIMES.........

2007-01-21T05:41:00.004+05:30

MOHABAT KA APNI SILA DHOOND LOONGA,

TERE DIL MAIN APNI JAGAH DHOOND LOONGA,

TU WAKIF NAHI MERI DEEWANGE SE AGAR JID PE AAO KHUDA DHOOND LOONGA !

COURAGE !

2007-01-15T08:00:00.001+05:30

Once upon a time there was a king. who won every war in his life except one in which all his enemies made an alliance and attacked. They captured king and sent him behind gallows. Prisoners over there laughed at him and asked what he will do now ?

King replied

"I was ever a fighter ....so...... one more fight."

"THE LAST"

AND

" THE BEST ! "

Some one else idea, Just modified a bit but worth mentioning.

ART OF CREATION

2007-01-14T21:33:00.002+05:30

Some miracles make life interesting, fascinating. Who creates all that ? God ? chance ? Will ?

You don't decide timing, intensity but exuberance, worth noticing. Look away from what is god gift or no clue at all.

Let's think, Let's create a miracle around self. Fictitious ? No miracles do happen. We are not the maker of the world. Yet, there are few things, which might help us to create a miracle. In the zone of creativity, there is no dearth of ideas. But it takes something to convert it in a miracle. So lets do it with what you have, other things will either come in your way or you create them. Don't bother, just go ahead...you know you gonna make it any how ............

"THERE IS A MAGIC IN RISKING EVERYTHING FOR A DREAM WHICH NO ONE SEES BUT YOU !".

Talk of the walk !

2007-01-13T00:49:00.000+05:30

So you are hurted again. Feeling angry like any thing. But why do you hold others responsible ? Weren't you aware something will go wrong ? you were. Did you think twice ? no even never.Well, we humans are suppose to do mistakes and eventually not learning anyway. You don't want to consider your enemies because of what they are or where they are. Yet inspiration doesn't need any relationship.She said "there are always two meanings of any thing". But can you tell me madam why do you always pick negative one ? Same words could have been interpreted in a different way.

One of my buddies said me some day," Every bright face has its own black secrets. Brighter the face, darker the secret". I'm not agree but not disagree too. Very few people take great care while chosing relationships. Sounds good. You generate a philosophy by experimenting with life. But your chemistry may be physics for some one and life is like that so it does prevail. We can not plan everything in our life but we can surely opt/make a way, you want to live it. What could be worst ? simple ! oppisite of what could be best. Every wish granted, every dream lived up to your wildest desire. Contrast ? Almost nothing not even ur minutest desire. Where does equilibrium stay ? It should be some where. Am I talking something called "understanding ". It can not be borrowed, it's to be created and it's also can't be created by saying too. First you have to love and then sense not vice-versa.

Every-thing can't be yours in turn of sweets. You are matured enough, you can learn from mistake but surely can't apply same procedure again because direction will hazy after one step or you will feel like that. Still you have options to repeat/recreate same mistake.Infinite people/perceptions,infinite, infinite learning but do they all worth doing ? Answers lie within. Except your faith, no-one encourage you in best way. But do all they suppose to be bench mark? You don't believe in GOD but good exists in your world, so does bad. You trade your goodness and expect same. But how would you make believe people your good is "real good". Life is tough yet worth living. You can not make some-one understand your ethics, infact you don't have time to make one understood. When being good didn't work being bad is not the other way out. Some mysteries reveal only with time. So be it . What matters, is your stand. Once decided/taken, let it take it's own course. Such thing will follow you, upto the day you are a human. Mistakes cost badly but enrich you with one more perception. Yet richest is not the noblest. So use what can fetch you best and keep playing with different balances, who knows one day you learn balancing in best way. Just don't be a slave of imotions, live it,the way it can be lived best afterall its YOUR LIFE man.......even if you were wrong it will add only one silly mistake in your portfolio.......so .......... NJOY !

DESIRE !

2007-01-05T01:03:00.001+05:30

Deewano se ye mat poocho deewano pe kya gujri hai.
Auro ko pilate rehte hai aur khud pyase reh jate hai
Ye peene wale kya jane paimano pe kya gujri hai.
Maalik ne banaya insan ko, insan mohabbat kar baitha
Wo uper baitha kya jane insano pe kya gujri hai .....

Is this all for deviating me or there is something out there I must know ?
Love, hate , trust, betray, bravery, cowardice .....................
Refreshed ?
Yet another miracle to happen ?
busted feelings ?
New era to unfold ? . .
There is only one person, who can help u out........

only YOU ! . .

Tera koi sath na de to tu khud se preet jod le
Bichoona dharti ko karke are aakash odh le
Hai kaun sa wo insan yaha per jisne dukh na jhela
chal akela
Chal akela
Tera mela peeche choota rahi
Chal akela
Tu na chala to chal denge rahein
Yaha poora khel abhi jeevan ka tune kaha hai khela
Chal akela
Chal akela

Get your way . .

What ?

didn't get ?

MAKE ONE !

REBOUND

2007-01-04T01:32:00.002+05:30

just heard this old song and.......

GR8 minds think alike.....

2006-12-28T21:35:00.000+05:30

Thats why they decided to be born on same date
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28 December
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Abhishek Malik
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Dhreeu bhai Ambani
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Date of Birth: 28 December
According to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dhirubhai_Ambani
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Ratan Tata
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Date of Birth: December 28
According to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ratan_Tata
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CHEERS !

आग की भीख

2006-12-19T06:01:00.000+05:30

धुँधली हुई दिशाएँ, छाने लगा कुहासा,
कुचली हुई शिखा से आने लगा धुआँसा।
कोई मुझे बता दे, क्या आज हो रहा है,

मुंह को छिपा तिमिर में क्यों तेज सो रहा है?
दाता पुकार मेरी, संदीप्ति को जिला दे,
बुझती हुई शिखा को संजीवनी पिला दे।
प्यारे स्वदेश के हित अँगार माँगता हूँ।
चढ़ती जवानियों का श्रृंगार मांगता हूँ।

बेचैन हैं हवाएँ, सब ओर बेकली है,
कोई नहीं बताता, किश्ती किधर चली है?
मँझदार है, भँवर है या पास है किनारा?
यह नाश आ रहा है या सौभाग्य का सितारा?
आकाश पर अनल से लिख दे अदृष्ट मेरा,
भगवान, इस तरी को भरमा न दे अँधेरा।
तमवेधिनी किरण का संधान माँगता हूँ।
ध्रुव की कठिन घड़ी में, पहचान माँगता हूँ।

आगे पहाड़ को पा धारा रुकी हुई है,
बलपुंज केसरी की ग्रीवा झुकी हुई है,
अग्निस्फुलिंग रज का, बुझ डेर हो रहा है,
है रो रही जवानी, अँधेर हो रहा है!
निर्वाक है हिमालय, गंगा डरी हुई है,
निस्तब्धता निशा की दिन में भरी हुई है।
पंचास्यनाद भीषण, विकराल माँगता हूँ।
जड़ताविनाश को फिर भूचाल माँगता हूँ।

मन की बंधी उमंगें असहाय जल रही है,
अरमानआरज़ू की लाशें निकल रही हैं।
भीगीखुशी पलों में रातें गुज़ारते हैं,
सोती वसुन्धरा जब तुझको पुकारते हैं,
इनके लिये कहीं से निर्भीक तेज ला दे,
पिघले हुए अनल का इनको अमृत पिला दे।
उन्माद, बेकली का उत्थान माँगता हूँ।
विस्फोट माँगता हूँ, तूफान माँगता हूँ।

आँसूभरे दृगों में चिनगारियाँ सजा दे,
मेरे शमशान में आ श्रंगी जरा बजा दे।
फिर एक तीर सीनों के आरपार कर दे,
हिमशीत प्राण में फिर अंगार स्वच्छ भर दे।
आमर्ष को जगाने वाली शिखा नयी दे,
अनुभूतियाँ हृदय में दाता, अनलमयी दे।
विष का सदा लहू में संचार माँगता हूँ।
बेचैन ज़िन्दगी का मैं प्यार माँगता हूँ।

ठहरी हुई तरी को ठोकर लगा चला दे,
जो राह हो हमारी उसपर दिया जला दे।
गति में प्रभंजनों का आवेग फिर सबल दे,
इस जाँच की घड़ी में निष्ठा कड़ी, अचल दे।
हम दे चुके लहु हैं, तू देवता विभा दे,
अपने अनलविशिख से आकाश जगमगा दे।
प्यारे स्वदेश के हित वरदान माँगता हूँ।
तेरी दया विपद् में भगवान माँगता हूँ।

- दिनकर

better left unspoken !

2006-12-11T17:17:00.000+05:30

Band hotoein se jo ek bat kahi the maine
tujhe ab tak meri us bat ka aehsas nahi

Mere jasbat ka tu saj nahi sun sakta
kyu mere dil ke awaz nahi sun sakta
Aisa lagta hai, koi dil he tere pas nahi
tujhe ab tak meri us bat ka aehsas nahi

gunjti hai mere dhadkan ke sada tere liye
Meri aankho main abhi tak hai nasha tere liye
Main bano jam magar tujko meri pyas nahi
tujhe ab tak meri us bat ka aehsas nahi

Band hotoein se jo ek bat kahi the maine
tujhe ab tak meri us bat ka aehsas nahi

To Mr. Mush

2006-12-04T17:05:00.000+05:30

with Love
Ziddi Jaat

doing " MY WAY "

2006-11-29T19:15:00.000+05:30

There is a day, which we call " MY DAY " different for everyone yet " MY DAY ". You take some decision or say you draw a line now and say from here only or call onwards.Well I took it in a confused manner ......hmm..... m I coping some one ?

Fool !

No one can do even if try anyway. It's all about " MY DAY " and how are u going to stick with it. But how do we know its " MY DAY " ? Atheist ! so don't expect hint from there. So wat to do ? Well do we decide it earlier or we realize it later ? again contraction. But still people find it thats why they say its " MY DAY ". If u call it just for the sake of calling then how to convince yourself ?
THINK THINK AND THINK AGAIN UN TILL U GET.
Well let me call ..... Today is my day then.....
My analysis starts from here. Strength, Weakness.....all life can be described in two words. If its my day then my strength will increase day by day and weakness either it should diminish day by day or should constant from the day. Constant yup as we can't control wat has been done. But surely can have a hint ab't wats gonna to be next . Now move on the way, you think u should go, take u first step ...........well u can be restricted by ur destination only. yup but its quite faraway and u can set all in futuristic view but not untill u have got, for wat u had taken first step.
When ever I feel down, dejected , I look for wat, I had taken my first step and thats enough for keeping spirits high. how ? Dreams .....dreams ....dreams......never forget to dream even in dire straits as well said " HOPE ISN'T A BAD THING". Truth is that world is in a shape of as it should have been.But twisted picture can never motivate any body and dreams ....................yes a new way to look at things , u see but u don't see and u d wat u had earlier thought impossible because u think, u are doing it some other way.
Our democratic country has given maximum nos of criminals in parliament while constituent says some thing else. Reason ? wat should it be and wat it is.In a word, I call it " REFLECTION " .There are ways people attached themselves to be richer... stronger..... . So who should be at helm ? simply whoz gotta max. And ppl struggle through out their life for ......er,......er.......et al. But wat to d with " MY WAY " ? Simple when u start analysing world u r on ur way, now wat u adopt, its another thing. So " MY WAY " starts when u want it to be .

Determination ? how to get it ? Determination is a thought which u think, worth sticking forever. Chose one ! take a step towards ur destination and rest will follow. Only important thing is.... how d u take ur first step and predict the moment.
Decide it .......................... Live it.....................one step ................and u get it " MY WAY "

LIFE

2006-11-28T14:39:00.000+05:30

Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, wine in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming.

"WOO HOO

what a ride!"

This is me !!

Morning

2006-11-25T07:28:00.000+05:30

Seerat nahi hai jisme wo surat fuzool hai ;
khoosbu he nahi jisme wo kagaz ka phool hai !

Brother........

2006-10-31T01:07:00.000+05:30

SIDDESHWAR RATHI

brother, It can't be like that...

God if u really exist some wher give strength to his family to over come this irrepairable loss.

Speech less ?

2006-10-23T16:29:00.000+05:30

Mila wo bhe nahi karte, mila hum bhe nahi karte
Bewafai wo bhe nahi karte, bewafai hum bhe nahi karte.

unhe ruswai ka dukh hai, hume tanhai ka dukh hai
gila wo bhe nahi karte, gila hum bhe nahi karte.

college ke kisi na kis mod per aksar takrav ho he jata hai
ruka wo bhe nahi karte, ruka hum bhe nahi karte.

humein wo dekhte hai, unhe hum dekhte hai
chupa wo bhe nahi karte, chupa hum bhe nahi karte.

unhe jab dekhte hai, sochte hai kuch kahe unse
suna wo bhe nahi karte.....kaha hum bhe nahi karte....!

Happy Deewali !

2006-10-21T05:26:00.000+05:30

tooti hui mundair pe chota sa ik dia;
mosam se keh raha hai .......aandhi chala k dekh..

FIRST SEM RESULT OUT .........

2006-10-18T04:11:00.000+05:30

Time ........... 4 :10 a.m.
Atm ............ a bit of cold
Place ............ acads block (I.B.S. HYD)
location ............ staircase
Mood ............ ?
Activity ............ lemme.........
Menu ............ lemon tea
Result ............ destiny designated
Quote ............ lemme d it my way

u can d it or not , u r right.........either way !

Dariya hai hum,humme apna hunar mallom hai ;
Chalenge jis taraf rasta ho jaega...........................!

luv u....

2006-10-17T01:32:00.000+05:30

Kabhi kabhi is pagal dil ko humne yun bhe behlaya hai ;
Jo batein hum khud nahi samje auro ko samjhaya hai !

One of the ingredients

2006-10-16T02:22:00.000+05:30

Manjil unhe ko milte hai, jinke sapno main jan hoti hai.
pankho se nahi dosto, hoslo se udan hoti hai !

life is a journey......

2006-10-13T17:42:00.000+05:30

Milege manzil parindo ko ek din,
ye unke par bolte hai.....
Khamosh raha karte hai wo insan,
Zamane main jinke hunar bolte hai !

jo tor dakh sune koi na aase..........

2006-10-13T01:46:00.000+05:30

If they answer not to thy call,
walk alone !
If they are afraid and cower mutely facing the wall,
O thou of evil luck,
open thy mind and speak out alone !

If they turn away
and desert you when crossing the wilderness,
O thou of evil luck
trample the thorns under thy tread,
and along the blood-lined track travel alone.

If they do not hold up the light,
when the night is troubled with storm,
O thou of evil luck,
with the thunder flame of pain ignite,
thy own heartand let it burn alone.

Rabindra Nath Tagore

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2006-10-12T01:26:00.000+05:30

bikhri jo ye haseen zulfein hain,
unhe aur bikhar jane do,
iss waqt ko kuch aur sawer jane do,
bakki na reh jaye subha tak tamanna koi,
ek raat aisi bhi guzar jane do.

ARMOR OF GOD

2006-10-05T14:40:00.000+05:30

SOME LINES I LUV TO TALK AB'T....

2006-10-05T13:18:00.000+05:30

log har mod pe ruk ruk ke sambhalate kyun hain
itanaa Darate hain to phir ghar se nikalate kyun hain
main na juganu hun diyaa hun na koii taaraa hun
raushanii vaale mere naam se jalate kyun hain

TUM APNA RANJOO GHAM
TUM AAPNA RANJOO GHAM APNI PARESHANI MUJHE DE DO
MAI DEKHOO TO SAHI DUNIYA TUMHE KAISE SATATI HAI
THODE DIN KE LIYE APNI NIGHEBANI MUJHE DE DO !

TAARUFF ROG HO JAYE TO USKO BHOOLNA BEHTAR,
TAALUK BOJH BAN JAYE TO USKO TODNA ACCHA,
VO AFSANA JISE ANJAM TAK LANA NA HO MUMKIN,
USE EK KHOOB SURAT ROG DEKAR CHHORNA ACCHA !

DARD-E-DIL MEIN NA KAMMI KIJIYE......
DOSTI DUSHMANI NA HO JAYE........

ishq ki dastan hai pyare
apni apni zuban hai pyare
hum zamane se intequam to len ..
hum zamane se intequam to len ...
ek hansi darmiyan hai pyare ..
apni apni zuban hai ppyare ..

aadami aadmi kya dega
jo bhi dega wahi khuda dega
humse poocho na dosti ka sila
dushmanon ka bhi dil hila dega

kabhi khamosh baithoge, kabhi kuch gungunaoge
main utna yaad aaonga mujhe jitna bhulaoge
koi jab pooch baithega khamoshi ka sabab tumse
bahut samjhana chahoge magar amjha na paoge

kaun kehata hai mohabbat ki jaban hoti hai,
yeh haqeekat to nighaon se bayan hoti hai.

naa muhabbat naa dosti ke liye
waqt rukta nahin kisi ke liye
dil ko apne sazaa na de yun hi
soch le aaj do ghadi ke liye
chalta rahe waqt ke sath he
yahi munasif hai aadmi ke liye !!

FAITH !

2006-10-02T00:47:00.000+05:30

................ IF I CAN'T MAKE IT THROUGH ONE DOOR................
..........I'LL GO THROUGH ANOTHER DOOR OR I'LL MAKE ONE........
SOMETHING TERRAFIC WILL COME NO MATTER HOW DARK PRESENT IS !

**** RABINDRANATH TAGORE ****
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You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies
You may tred me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hope springs eternal
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops,
Weakened by my soulful cries.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

- Maya Angelou

RANDOM THOUGHTS

2006-10-01T21:50:00.000+05:30

GIRTE HAI SAHE-SAWAR HE JANGE MAIDAN MAIN .....
WO TIFL KYA LADENGE JO GHUTNO KE BAL CHALE HAI !..

SAHE SAWAR horse rider
TIFL children

Great indian politician......

2006-09-30T18:15:00.000+05:30

last three days spent in watching tv only and visualising our great .............

wo baat saare fasaane mein jisakaa zikr na thaa .
wo baat unako bahot naa-gavaar guzarii hai !!

all i could decipher....

ek he ullu kafi hai barbad-e-gulistan karne ko,
har sakh pe ullu baitha ho anjam-e-gulista kya hoga !

Tere bin main kaise jiya.........

2006-09-30T18:11:00.000+05:30

Time, it needs time
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there

Love, only love
Can bring back your love someday
I will be there, I will be there

Try, baby try
To trust in my love again
I will be there, I will be there

Love, our love
Just shouldn't be thrown away
I will be there, I will be there

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall, so strong
That I can't get through
Is there really no chance
To start once again

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Yes, I've hurt your pride, and I know
What you've been through
You should give me a chance
This can't be the end
I'm still loving you
I'm still loving you
I'm still loving you, I need your love
I'm still loving you
Still loving you baby